I thank God for all He has done for me because He is a faithful God and answered prayers. He is a merciful God and forgives even when we think we are beyond repair. I had been struggling with masturbation since I was a small child even before I had started going to school.
I did not know what I was doing was wrong until I was in class 7. When I tried to stop I could not. When I got saved in high school and even became a member of the Christian union, I did not understand why I was still struggling with it, though I was genuinely saved. I did not know what to do and I was desperate.
I prayed, fasted, sometimes even called the numbers usually shown on family TV because I did not want to tell anyone who knew me but nothing changed.
I did not know what to do so I just told God that I had left everything to him. I really wanted a way out so I told a friend though it was really embarrassing and God was faithful and used her to help me get help. I went to a prayer meeting and as I heard the teaching on soul ties everything made a lot of sense.
When I was a child and was left home alone with the house help we would do a lot of things and I also had a sister who would touch me inappropriately whenever she would be giving me a shower. I guess that also explains why I used to fantasize with people of the same sex.
Even before the teaching ended I felt like God was doing something new. After the soul ties were broken I was made a new person. I stopped fantasizing just like that. My will changed because even when I felt like doing it I could not. I can’t explain but I know it’s totally God because I could not have done it with my own strength.
I also used to have a lot of fear towards my father but after the prayers all the fear was gone. I could sit in the same room with him unlike before where I would walk out whenever he came in. I really thank God for all He has done.